在你窗外闪耀的星星

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在你窗外闪耀的星星

飞逝的的时光不会模糊我对你的记忆。难以相信从我第一次见到你以来已经过去了 3 年。我仍然还生动地记得,3 年前,在美丽的集美中学,从我看到你微笑着走出教室,你将头向后仰,柔和的晚霞照耀着你玫瑰色的脸颊。我明白,我已经沉醉于你了。之后,经过几个月的观察和窥探,你的优雅与智慧,你对待生活的态度和你对未来的愿望深切地在我心中留下了印象。你是迷人的阳光女孩,我总是梦想着与你分享余生。唉,实际上你远远超过了我最疯狂的梦想。我不知道如何桥起我与你之间的鸿沟。所以我没有任何计划,仅仅只是等待,等待一个适当的机会到来。直到现在,毕业的到来,我意识到我是个傻瓜,我应该创造机会并且抓住它而不只是等待。

这些日子里,我和我的朋友、室友、同学一个接一个地分开。我仍无法相信,在挥手之后,这些熟悉的面孔很快就会从我们的生活中消失,仅仅留下回忆。我明天就将离开学校。你已经计划远走高飞,追求你的未来,实现你的梦想。如果没有命运,也许我们不会再次相遇。所以今晚,我正在你的宿舍楼下徘徊,希望能偶然遇见你。但矛盾的是,你的美貌一定会使我心跳加速,我笨拙的舌头也许无法吐出一个字。我不记得我曾多少次经过你的宿舍楼,每次都希望看到你出现在阳台上或是窗台上。我不记得这个想法曾多少次在我的脑海中涌出:打电话叫她一起吃晚饭或是聊聊天。但每次,考虑到你的优秀和我的平凡,胆怯的优势超越勇气驱使我静静地离开。

毕业,意味着中学生活的终结。这些光荣与浪漫的时代结束。你可爱的微笑是我原来努力学习的动力,这单相思的爱情会被密封,作为一个我心灵深处的记忆。毕业,也意味着新生活的开始,一个到达光明未来的足迹。我真希望你在国外天天开心,一切顺利。同时,我将努力从幼稚中走出来,变得更加成熟。我的理想将是在现实中追求我的爱与幸福,我永远不会放弃。

再见了,我的公主!

如果有一天,在某个天涯海角,我们有机会相聚,即使是白发苍苍的男人和女人,在那个时候,我希望我们可以成为好朋友来自豪地分享这个记忆,重温年轻快乐的激情。如果这个机会永远没有到来,我希望我是天空中的星星,在你的窗外闪烁。远远地保佑着你,就像一个朋友,每天晚上陪伴在你左右,一同分享甜美的梦亦或是一同经历可怕的梦。

Start in your Window

Fleeting time does not blur my memory of you. Can it really be 4 years since I first saw you? I still remember, vividly, on the beautiful Zhuhai Campus, 4 years ago, from the moment I saw you smile, as you were walking out of the classroom and turned your head back, with the soft sunset glow shining on your rosy cheek, I knew, I knew that I was already drunk on you. Then, after several months’ observation and prying, your grace and your wisdom, your attitude to life and your aspiration for future were all strongly impressed on my memory. You were the glamorous and sunny girl whom I always dream of to share the rest of my life with. Alas, actually you were far beyond my wildest dreams and I had no idea about how to bridge that gulf between you and me. So I schemed nothing but to wait, to wait for an appropriate opportunity. Till now — the arrival of graduation, I realize I am such an idiot that one should create the opportunity and seize it instead of just waiting.

These days, having parted with friends, roommates and classmates one after another, I still cannot believe the fact that after waving hands, these familiar faces will soon vanish from our life and become no more than a memory. I will move out from school tomorrow. And you are planning to fly far far away, to pursue your future and fulfill your dreams. Perhaps we will not meet each other any more if without fate and luck. So tonight, I was wandering around your dormitory building hoping to meet you there by chance. But contradictorily, your appearance must quicken my heartbeat and my clumsy tongue might be not able to belch out a word. I cannot remember how many times I have passed your dormitory building both in Zhuhai and Guangzhou, and each time aspired to see you appear in the balcony or your silhouette that cast on the window. I cannot remember how many times this idea comes to my mind: call her out to have dinner or at least a conversation. But each time, thinking of your excellence and my commonness, the predominance of timidity over courage drove me leave silently.

Graduation, means the end of life in university, the end of these glorious, romantic years. Your lovely smile which is my original incentive to work hard and this unrequited love will be both sealed as a memory in the deep of my heart and my mind. Graduation, also means a start of new life, a footprint on the way to bright prospect. I truly hope you will be happy everyday abroad and everything goes well. Meanwhile, I will try to get out from puerility and become more sophisticated. To pursue my own love and happiness here in reality will be my ideal I never desert.

Farewell, my princess!

If someday, somewhere, we have a chance to gather, even as gray-haired man and woman, at that time, I hope we can be good friends to share this memory proudly to relight the youthful and joyful emotions. If this chance never comes, I wish I were the stars in the sky and twinkling in your window, to bless you far away, as friends, to accompany you every night, sharing the sweet dreams or going through the nightmares together.

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